29 weeks

...23 weeks ago we found out we were pregnant, seems like a very long time ago. its amazing to think ray ray will be here in 10 weeks. whoa. we're not ready! reality of what i'd like to get done before he's born is hitting me hard. things like oh, plan a wedding, finish setting up the nursery, wrap up all my work projects, taxes, change my name. ack, it'll all get done. that's my mantra to avoid stressing.

...we're just started thinking about the birthing process. the labor doula thing might not happen, for a thousand bucks i'm sure they provide an excellent service, but hey, we could use a thousand bucks in better ways. the postnatal doula is still on the table. i mean, someone to come help you breastfeed, light housework and help you adjust sounds AWESOME. we'll see, i know our moms and ame will be around for a few weeks.

...work has been horrendous this week, so props to jala for taking care of me the few hours i have been home.

...just started talking about the birthing process. we start birthing classes soon at the hospital. i'm all about medicating pain. we're having the kid in a HOSPITAL, we should take advantage of all their services including the epidural. i'm over the natural childbirth stigma. at the end of the day, i'm a wimp. i don't like being in pain.

...someone asked me the other day if i enjoyed being pregnant. i really can't say i love it but i don't hate it either. my body is no longer my own, i don't recognize it in the mirror yet i can't remember what it felt like to not be pregnant. it's all very alien. sleeping is difficult and my back is sore by the end of the day. oh and the worst is urinary incontinence. nothing major, just a little when i sneeze in the morning. i've threated to wear depends despite jala's protests. simultaneously, i'm in awe that there is another life in me, our son. and grateful that all is going well.

...name for today: alejandro